Ren hates the color pink. He loves sports, and the list of what he's taken part in is long. His preference always was to be with the guys. In high school, when he went to the mall with his female friends, he was always bothered by the way girl's clothes fit him. Too tight across the chest to show off his breasts. He decided he was gay for sure in college, and left boys behind for the women he was meeting. His family was okay when he came out as lesbian, but less so when he came out to them as male. The hardest part of his transition so far, though, has been coming out as male to himself. Societal and religious pressure always cause confusion and resistance -- and it was some time before his mind accepted what his body already knew.